change of plans.
Just a little update, or change of plans if you will… I gave up on fashion merchandising as an undergrad because it would mean 3ish more years of undergrad studies. So I’m finishing my family science degree and the majoring in merchandising. Of all people, my mom is the one telling me I’m selling myself short (didn’t see that one coming…!) but I feel like Gods plans for me aren’t so much focused on school right now. If they are, then I’m messing up royally. But I could still really use some prayer at the moment. Please.
Love,
kels
ramblings
what is the deal with wanting stuff for no reason? Or not stuff really, more like people. More like boys. Or love. When you get right down to it, its love that I crave. Like that mushy romantic junk you see in movies. And this want just seems to occur when ever it feels like it. It makes my heart ache for hand holding and kisses on the forehead and all kinds of lovey junk that doesn’t actually matter. I realize it’s a craving and nothing more, but its one that makes my heart ache.
give me YOUR eyes, for just one second
i got home from work at 7 oclock this morning, after being there for nine hours. someone though it would be a good idea to do a floorset in the middle of the week when no one was available (i love my job, i love my job, i love my job…) but thank the lord i made it home in the pouring rain, which was beautiful. the night was fantastic, except for the floorset part, lol… and I am soooooo thankful for the wornderful people who are working so hard to help me develop into a manager. and more so thankful to God for putting them in my life.
oh, and i think i see a promotion in my future. 
also, this song keeps coming on the radio at all the perfect times:
“give me YOUR eyes for just one second, give me YOUR eyes so i can see,
everything that i’ve been missin, give me YOUR love for humanity.
give me YOUR arms for the broken hearted, the ones who are far beyond my reach.
give me YOUR heart for the ones forgotten, give me YOUR eyes so i can see.”
Lord please give me your eyes so I can see the things that you want me to see, and the way you want me to go, and the people that need You.
favorites <3
no blog for 4 months, then two in one day…
a few of my favorite things:
(in no particular order)
*morning coffee
*books that make me think
*my ipod (where is it?)
*my roommate, steph.
*grahm crackers and frosting (remember dunk-a-roos?)
*my best friend, who is far far away in greensboro. the far, far away part isnt my favorite.
*less than three.
*my family.
*seeing people after a really long time and its like they never left.
*really great hugs.
*fashion (american eagle. its a sad addiction)
*scarves. i currently have 12 and the new line at a.e. comes out next weekend…
*friends who have seen your every flaw and seem to love you more inspite of those flaws. (steph, sean, and steve, you are amazing.)
love,
kels
ps: in the retail world, christmas starts the week before halloween, and ends in january. so if you dont here from me for a while, dont be offended, im probably buried under a pile of clothes.
ice. GOD. fashion merchandising.
I had to scrape ice off my car this morning 
luckily i was leaving the apartment early, so i wasnt late for class, but just the thought of getting out the scrapper made me want to crawl back into bed with my book (The Screwtape Letters, by C.S. Lewis. I highly recommend it) But, I put on my brave face and scraped of the ice. (with my qudoba card, i havent purchased a scrapper yet) it wasnt like it was a lot, most had melted by the time i got to it, but it made me think about the upcoming winter, and how i wanted it to go. I want it to be different and special and i want to work hard and seek God.
GOD, please help me!
I want to spend more time in my bible, but I just took on a development plan at work that has me working almost full time, as well as my 15 credit hours @ UNL. so Im asking for a little prayer, Im gonna need it!
in other news, i changed my major to fashion merchandising.
soul’d out.
I went to church with my roomie this Sunday. I came home from work at 4 a.m. and slept for a few hours before Steph woke me up to go to the early service at River Tree. I wasn’t totally excited about going so early in the morning but I decided to humor her.
It was quite possibly one of the best decisions of my life. The pastor was incredible, but what really got me was the worship songs sang after the service. “From the Inside Out “ has been one of my favorite songs for a while now but standing there listening I realized the truth behind the words. “The cry of my heart is to bring You praise…” my heart truly is crying out to be completed by surrendering everything to God. That is what would fill the emptiness in me. I’m struggling to get good grades, have a job, and keep up a full social life. I’m basically trying redeem myself, and all the while my soul knows that I cannot, and it simply wants to praise its creator.
the start.
(somehow this never got posted, just saved. its what i wrote the first day that I opened the blog account. its sort of a disclaimer i guess. anyway, im posting it now.)
Teachers often tell me that my writing style can get awkward if I’m not careful. When I write essays or news ed. pieces I spend lots of time working on the syntax so that the words flow just right. Sentence structure is my weakness; my thoughts are often mixed, not in the correct order. But this blog is my thoughts on paper. And since my thoughts don’t come in order, the syntax could get really awkward. I’m not writing because I want to impress you with how great my vocabulary is, or the flawlessness of my sentence structure. This is about finding God and falling in love with Him daily. It’s about reading His word and learning lessons because of his grace, and I want to share that. It’s not about me, so if no one ever reads this its ok. I’m a child of God, and if you’d like, I’ll show you what he’s doing in my life.
“I told you so..”
The semester is finally coming to a close, the upcoming week is what’s known on campus as dead week, and the following week will be finals. On Wednesday I will be done with the semester and on Thursday I can head home to spend three weeks with my family and my friends. I can’t wait to see my best friend, and to hang out with my cousins, and I’m already excited about the candlelight service on Christmas Eve. But first I have to wade through finals week. It’s been a tough semester, definitely not my best. My grades weren’t a very good example of what I can do, and although part of that is due to something a little out of my control, I have to say that a lot of my stress and tough times this semester have been due to that fact that I am so unwilling to give things to God. I’m very used to keeping stuff to myself, and sometimes I forget that God already knows what’s going on in my life, but that I have to let Him help me. On the bright side, I’m really starting to see what I need in life, and I think that’s a huge step in my faith. It’s not enough to blindly follow God, although faith is hugely important. Knowing what you believe and why is so important too, and I think the past couple months have been a lot of God showing me why I need Him. Not that I think God is telling me “I told you so” but He’s given me a huge reminder of how important His love is in my life. Looking back on the semester, it has been the toughest one so far, but I’ve learned and grown a lot. I am so thankful for all of the blessings that God has given me in the form of encouraging friends. One especially great best friend comes to mind, but I have been surrounded this semester by some really supportive people, and I am just now starting to realize this. So.. Thank you.
